today so far

soooo today was Richard Molloy funeral. i had less than 4 hours of sleep so i didnt stay long. i used to hang out with richard alot when i was younger. would go and pick him up and go run around to like the mall or broad ripple or some park and just goof off with friends.

it was strange being there cuase i havent really seen him in awhile.. like i saw him a few times over the years but i never really hung out with him like in the past. and on top of that this was the first funeral that i have ever been to where the person was cremated. im not sure how i feel about that.. for me a funeral is the final "see you later" and without seeing a body it was just different and sorta felt like it wasnt real or this was a stage.... there is no closure i guess. But from what im guessing is his body was pretty mangled from the accident, so i guess it was the best choice.

where ever you are richard i know its a good place. you might have had some drug problems but you are a very kind hearted person and you deserve a good place.

cherries and blueberries
Love adam

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so shortly after i got home my mom threw an idea for my blog... before i get in to what she said, let me tell you right now that SHE PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF

for those of you that dont know, my mom is a pastor (preacher, reverend, bible speaker but not a bible thumper) now she doesnt hate gays and she isnt against them getting married

BUT she is against them calling it marriage "because in scripture marriage is between a man and a woman". she wanted me to create a blog consisting of how gays should be allowed to be married but they should come up with their own "definition".

at that point in time i said fuck scripture god doesnt care if they use the word marriage. she said yes he does care... thats where i got super pissed off.. and i mean pissed... if that wasnt my mother my fist would be in their face... i looked her strait in the eyes and said"well it looks like im going to fucking hell and you need to shut the fuck up" i turned around and walked out of the room. she continued to tell me that im not understanding what she was saying and after numerous times of tellingher to stop talking to me and to shut up i litteraly had to kick a table across the floor to get her to realize its not something i want to disscuss with her.

i feel disgusted with her.. seriously. like im glad she is for gay marriage and stuff now(she used to not be) but the fact that they "shouldnt be alowed to use the word marriage" and that she came to ME thinking i would think that its a good disscussion topic , it really disturbed me... its like she said gays arent good enough for the word marriage but they are good enough to get married.


hflkaihgfoihareghaoehguqahniugnqeg <---- anger.. thats just the short story with the main details.. there was more to it that started the fuse but its just not worth writing about.

i will write a gay blog later... lol gay blog